the 2nd chance will be the PERFECT

Good news, exactly.

1. TEM8 passed with score 60.

2. Double check my application status. I believe the prof. and myself that my case will be fine.

3. My boss praised me and Jessie as well.

4. Bitch went away. And the truth is ... she was asked to go away.

Bad news...

1. My DC is out of control...

2. Increasing weights.

3. Crazy about several TV series, including HK, Japanese, Korean and American TV, but feel sleepy at some 10 o'clock p.m..

What I am watching...

  Heart of Greed 溏心风暴 (HK)

  白夜行 (Japan)

  Que Sera Sera 顺其自然 (Korea)

  Heroes (U.S.A.)

Am I out of date? Haha...

4. Lack of moisture and sleep.

May says I am always very lucky,  aren't I?   Whatever, luck is also my ability, just like heroes, ha~  

It seems that I didn't work hard, and stop studying now.  As for me, the most important thing is to improve my English and learn some daily Cantonese.^^

Besides, I attended a symposium about international volunteer, more specifically as previous log.  Bluntly, it's a good practice for us youngsters.  But how we think about our family and parents is very different from western people do.  As long as they are 18 years old, they have nothing to do with their families, let alone money stuff.  However, in China, even in Asia, we choose a high-pay job to supply our parents, and other relatives owing to low retirement pension and incomplete system for the aged.  So westerners can do what they really wanna do, to help others in trouble, to forget about their own salaries.  Although I'm interested in that YID program, I am living in reality.  Since my family is not rich enough, I have to be responsible for my parents at graduation.  This makes difference.  It's the obstacle I cannot conquer right now.  Maybe several years later, if I earn enough money, I'll give up my career life to contribute myself to charity, to volunteer work.  But what's the meaning of "enough"?

In a word, I'm not brave enough to follow Elisabeth, Jin Jie and every DI.  Please wait a long time, perhaps I'll be there one day.

怎麽可以在這麽短的時間裏做這麽多決定？

學習，工作，生活。

每一個都是重中之重。

我卻都拿不定主意。

畢業的初衷是什麽？工作的初衷是什麽？生活的初衷是什麽?

人，就是賤。

什麽都沒有的時候希望有點什麽；

有點什麽了希望什麽都有；

什麽都有了又想回到什麽都沒有的狀態。

很討厭的情緒，

一直控制著我的判斷力和判斷的速度。

十幾嵗的時候一直覺得二十嵗是大人了，

足以下任何判斷做任何決定，

可是儼然已二十有二，

卻仍舊對自己做的決定不放心。

很多時候，

你們覺得我做決定很快，

其實是因爲我不願意、不高興去多想，

説到底我是個怕麻煩的人。

所以我選擇了快速決定帶來的早死早超生之快感。

在松江，

待了數日，

卻是每日淒涼。

變天的淒涼，——我病剛好，周六那個叫熱啊，我還p顛p顛穿得特少去久別的校園，結果。。。謝謝sasa借我的衣服，下周一還給她，呵呵

專八的淒涼，——都這麽大了，寫作文還跑題，連個題目都沒看明白，還玩什麽？考完出來，老天都為我哭泣，竟然下雨了，我和ff穿著單薄的衣服走在雨裏，走在風中，走在淒涼裏

看花樣男子的淒涼，——這男主角叫個丑。。。一個下午+一個晚上把看丑男一次性搞定了，第二部都不想看了

高英課的淒涼，——七個人，好小的班。。。王正都傻了，估計他也沒見過這架勢，一個半小時，我和老婆連大氣都不敢喘，憋死了，要知道，坐在那個那個該死的教室裏，眉角動一動的聲音別人都能聽到吧。

是不是覺得好淒涼？是不是覺得炫豬好可憐？

不過不過不過

各位各位各位

注意注意注意

我炫豬豈是那種怨天尤人之人？

醬紫會變怨婦的喲~

聲明：我決定的事情是不會後悔滴！

（嗯！我可以作證     

你誰啊？- -|||||）

或許。。。是我怕麻煩。。。而不高興後悔

哈哈，後悔多累啊

anyway，事很多，課很港，天很冷，我很煩，大家保重。。。

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這篇部落格確確實實反映了一個雙重性格的水瓶座女生的内心世界。

我們一起bs她吧。

She is insane.

So am I.